Tuesday, December 7, 2010
If u r Asking
Most Disgusting Kinds of Men!!
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Who Deserves Me?
Thursday, July 8, 2010
The Art of Letting Go
To let go is an art,
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Painful Feelings
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Conversation between Love and Sadness
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I'm a Woman...
Friday, March 12, 2010
The Heart Cry Situations
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Keep Me Alive
Your smile makes me fly
Your care makes me pray
To be there and stay
Dreaming of a play
Starring you and may
Waiting our wedding day
For you to be my sky
Hoping this will be
The start for u and me
Giving you the key
To set my heart free
Living a life away
From any black envy
Looking into my eye
Will sure make me cry
Of the happiness i feel
With you there's no fear
Ur arms are the shield
For my safety indeed
So keep me alive
With ur presence in my life
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Perfect Heart
Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.
The people stared - how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."
"Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance.
Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"
The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.
How sad it must be to go through life with a whole untouched heart.
Monday, March 1, 2010
I Need Love!!
لمَ العجب...نعم أريد حُبااااااا.!!
أريد حبيباًاااااا يشعرني بالأمااااااان..!
أريد حبيباًااااااا معي في كل حين..!
أريد حبيباًاااااااا لايكذب..!
أريد حبيباًاااااااا لايغدر..!
أريد حبيباًااااااا يصفح عني زلاتي
يغفر لي هفواتي
لايلومني على ما أقترفته فيماااااا ماااااضى..!
حبيباًاااااااا رحيم
يسمع لي في كل حين ولايمل..!
وأبث إليه شكواي فلا يكل
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برأيكم أين سأاااااااااجد كل هذا.!!!
وهل مطالبي كثيرة.!!
وهل هي مواااااصفاااااااات تعجيزيه.!!
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بااااااالرغم من ذلك وجدت ماااااااااأصبوا إليه
انــــــه :
وياااله من ح ـــب..!
لنرى معاًاااااا جزءً يسير جداً من دلآلآت ح ــب الله لنااااااا..
كل انسااااااان يعاملك ليأخذ منك ويستفيد..!
أما الله تعالى يعاملك لتكون انت الراااااااابح والمستفيد..!
فااااالحسنة بعشرة امثالها ع ــلى سبعمائة ضعف إلى اضعاف كثيرة. .
[ لأنه يحبك ]
سيئتك بواح ــدة وهي اقرب للمحو فدمعة واح ــدة منك قد تمحو آلاف الخطايا. . [ لأنه يحبك ]
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حديث قدسي ..
((إذا هم عبدي بحسنة ولم يعملها كتبتها له حسنة فإن هو عملها كتبتها له عشر حسنات إلى سبعمائة ضعف وإذا هم بسئية ولم يعملها لم أكتبها عليه فإن عملها كتبتها سيئة واحدة ))
((ينزل سبحانه إلى السماء الدنيا نزولاً يليق بجلالته فينادي بلطيف قوله : ((هل من سائل فأعطيه سؤاله هل من مستغفر فأغفر له )) ..[ لأنه يحبك ]
أرشدك إلى الطريق الصحيح ودلك عليه ووعدك بثوبة عظمى مابعدها مثوبة ..[ لأنه يحبك ]
كان من الممكن أن تكون ح ـطباً لجهنم (عافاكم الله) ولكنه جعلك مسلماًااا. . [ لأنه يحبك ]
Sunday, February 28, 2010
O Allah
I'm thinking all the time when the day will come,
The challenges that i've suffered,
O Allah, i'm waiting for the call,
I feel alive and i feel strong,
To see my muslim brothers,
I truely hope one day,
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Give me the Chance
but give me the one chance.
I could show you a whole new world.
So take my hand, let me lead this dance.
I can help open your eyes
or even brighten your life
all you have to do is trust
listen when I say this is love, not just lust.
So once again give me the chance
and let me lead this dance.
I will show you what little girls can do.
If only you knew what I would do for u
I’ll hold on through thick and thin
when the light is bright, or even dim.
Just give me the chance
to lead this dance.
What I give to you is priceless
but not meaningless.
The gift I give to you is my love
to do what you wish,
Just give me the chance
and together we can lead this dance.
Past, Present, Future
To you and not anyone else.
Everyday, not just now and then,
To be able to call you more than a friend.
Friendship goes in and out.
To make it stay, to be more than a doubt.
A wish well wanted, to become real,
To see through the mist that's never still.
Hearts that don't stop loving, Even when one dies.
Eyes that are truthful, that tell no lies.
Lips that share the love so sweet,
Bodies that feel the intense heat.
Sunny days spent together,
Memories that will hopefully last forever.
Winters spent keeping each other warm.
Holding each other through the storm.
Emotions so strong they must be shared,
So someone else does not stand bare.
Giving without taking back.
Never giving into the slack.
Here at the chapel we stand,
To be called wife and man.
To be one forever and always.
Walking down the corridors and hallways.
Life will give plenty of times,
When the corridor splits in two.
We'll go together in the dark,
But if we stay together,
We'll make it through.
Making it through, day by day,
This is what I had to say.
Learn and also be the teacher,
Of what was, is, and could be,
The Past, Present, Future
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Islam is my Religion
Still people are not pleased.
It’s maligned and made fun of,
See it for yourself before you further mock.
Turn to Quran.
It’s the book for mankind,
It urges you to be kind,
It’s the book which correspond with Science,
To the “Blind” it’s the sign,
During the Dark Age,
What was the earth’s shape?
What did man knew about embryology?
Astronomy was alien,
But Quran answers all,
Isn’t that miracle?
Oh, you people respect my Quran.
People perceives that Muhammad (pbuh) is our Lord,
It isn’t true,
He ain’t No God,
A servant to the master,
He was here to save the world from disaster.
He abolished slavery,
Gave the women their due dignity,
Humble & clean,
Always ready to support,
The Right & The victim,
The pillars of Islam,
Shahadah - Oneness of God,
Salat- The prayers,
Zakat- Charity,
Sawm – Fasting,
Hajj – Pilgrim.
Where does it talk about killing innocent being?
Why don’t they see,
What is best and why do they propagate,
What is not good for anyone’s interest?
Respect mankind
By respecting things what they believe is divine.
Religion join people,
Politicians create divide by using religion as a tool to survive.
I join my hand and bow to the almighty,
Let peace prevail,
And the demons exhale
Prophet's Biography
Born a son to Amina
became a messenger to Allah
revealed islam to the whole Arabia
we enjoy the fruit of islam today
how many many sufferings he had that day
to establish the believers for any day
every corner there are believers today.
However, do we pay any attention to read the pains of our prophet
tortures of Abu Lahab while our prophet was commencing prayers
Abu Lahab invited some one to bring a guts of a camel & put
on the back of our prophet who was in prayer
Some one responded to his order & tortured our prophet
our prophet was in prostration
could not lift his head in that situation
till his daughter fatimah came to change its position
How on earth we are going to love our prophet
without knowing the sufferings he had for his ummah
at least read once in your life, life of our prophet who showed us the path of jennah
Monday, February 22, 2010
End of Life
When the night has no bright
When u feel no love beside
When u have tears inside
When caring is just a dream
When understading is just a game
When love is just a play
When we always have to pay
When everything lose meaning
When no-one is bearing
It's loss of happiness
It's lack of success
It's the end of life
It's the end of life
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Lost Friendship
When we laughed and shared it all
We were the very best of friends
Or at least that’s what I thought.
I often wonder why friendships end
What happens to break that tie
How can someone once so close
Just wave you off with a good bye.
I must have been lacking
I must have been wrong
I wasn’t the friend for you
That you were to me all along.
I thought I was loyal
I know I was true
But something went wrong
Now there’s nothing to do.
A friendship lost
Is a very sad thing
The angels weep instead of sing.
Tears..
wishing I'm able to hold the one I seek.
Tears from my heart I cry,
left out here alone to die.
Tears I cry from the soul,
wishing my heart was once again whole.
Tasting the tears,
trying to wipe away the fears.
Wondering if I'll ever have love,
wondering when Allah'll give me life.
Lonely..!!
Lonely are the days
Lonely am I, in so many ways.
Lonely are the seasons
Lonely are the years
So lonely am I, that it brings tears.
Lonely is this place
Lonely is my life
Lonely am I, that I reach for a knife.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
True Love Valentine Quotes
"A kiss upon the hand of someone you truly love, is more beautiful, and more valuable than any diamond or gem could ever be"
"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
"True love is knowing a person's faults, and loving them even more for them"
"True love is when your heart and mind are saying the same thing"
"Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle; rather a great reminder of just how strong true love can be"
"When you love someone, you pick up the little things and magically turn them into something special"
"A relationship is a two way street. It's never all your fault or the other persons. You go into the relationship together and work through it all together"
"It takes a second to say I love you, but a lifetime to show it"
"When you love a woman, you see your world inside her eyes"
"I chose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection. I chose to love you in your loneliness, for in your loneliness no one owns you, but me"
"True love can touch your heart just one time and last for a life time"
"Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and you find out you still care for that person"
"You know when you have found your prince because you not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well"
"If I have to tell you that I love you every minute of every day of my life, it's still not enough to show you how much love I feel for you deep within my heart"
"Love is not finding someone to live with, it's finding someone you can't live without"
"Don't wait until it's too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they're gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry, they won't hear you anymore"
"Love Means To See Someone With Closed Eyes, To Miss Someone In The Crowed, To Think Of Someone In Every Thought"
"Love Is When U Miss Him Even Before He's Gone, When U Could Listen To Him All Night And Not Get Tired Of His Voice, When The Sound Of His Name Sends Chills Down Your Spine, And When U See Him Smile The Second U Close Your Eyes"
"You know that you are in love when the hardest thing to do is say good-bye"
"Your true Love sees your first tear... Catches the second... and Does everything to prevent the third"
"If u've love, u don't need to have anything else & if u don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else do u have"
"Love is something Silent, but it can be Louder than Anything when it Talks"
"Women wish to be Loved: not because they r pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or even intelligent.. but because they r themselves"
"Wanna call the stars down from the sky I wanna live aday that never die I wanna change the world only for u All the impossible i wanna do I wanna hold u close under the rain I wanna kiss ur smile and feel the pain I know what's beautiful looking at u In aworld of lies u r the truth And baby every time u touch me.. I become a hero i'll make u safe no matter where u r And bring u every thing u ask for"
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Open Ur Heart
What I'm felling deep down inside.
I die a little bit everyday,
for I love you so much I'm afraid to say.
I smile whenever I hear your name,
I need to know if you feel the same.
If you need some time let me know how much,
How long must i wait to feel your touch?
I have tried to move on but when I do,
All my feelings come right back to you.
I think you're the one who's meant for me,
I feel this love is meant to be.
I'll leave you alone if you want me to,
I just need to know what I should do.
I know you're afraid to be hurt again,
but this is now and that was then.
That was her and this is me,
I love you so much why can't you see.
I would always be faithful and always be true,
If you told me that you love me too.
Open your heart to the love I feel,
And with your fear i will help you deal.
My Reason to Smile
that love could ever be real.
Giving up on what I knew,
I thought my heart wouldn't heal.
To me love was just a game,
a game that I could never win.
Losing everything I had,
everything that could've been.
Then here you come into my life
changing the thoughts in my mind.
Bringing me to a new start
leaving all my pain behind.
You're the reason that I write,
brand new poems of true love.
You've given me the things I need,
everything that I've dreamed of.
You showed me how to love again,
the things I lost; in you I found.
You gave me a reason to smile,
you said I had no need to frown.
I will forever be grateful
for everything you have to give.
All the happiness I needed,
and another reason to live.
Every time I hear your name,
a smile forms across my face.
A new feeling...everlasting,
that I know nothing can replace.
I'm so thankful that I have you,
you're there when I need you most.
I don't want anything else,
I just want to hold you close.
I know you'll stay right by my side,
and walk with me that extra mile.
Your love is my reason to live,
and you are my reason to smile.
Five Words
If you do not know them, I will give you a clue.
I have wanted to say them, afraid of what i'll hear.
My heart almost screams them, the meanings so clear.
Those five words, that i have rarely spoken.
Can cure anything, a heart that's broken.
If you are still unsure, why i am making you wait.
I can't wait any longer, I simply must state.
The first three"I Love you," such an easy claim.
Not alone but with the second two which're your name.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Love & Care for ur Parents
{ وقضى ربك ألا تعبدوا إلا إياه و بالوالدين إحسانا }
اللهم يا ذا الجلال و الإكرام يا حي يا قيوم ندعوك باسمك الأعظم الذي إذا دعيت به أجبت! ! ! ، أن تبسط على والدتي من بركاتك ورحمتك ورزقك
اللهم ألبسها العافية حتى تهنأ بالمعيشة ، واختم لها بالمغفرة حتى لا تضرها الذنوب ، اللهم اكفها كل هول دون الجنة حتى تُبَلِّغْها إياها .. برحمتك يا ارحم الراحمين
اللهم لا تجعل لها ذنبا إلا غفرته ، ولا هما إلا فرجته ، ولا حاجة من حوائج الدنيا هي لك رضا ولها فيها صلاح إلا قضيتها, اللهم ولا تجعل لها حاجة عند أحد غيرك
اللهم و أقر أعينها بما تتمناه لنا في الدنيا
اللهم إجعل أوقاتها بذكرك معمورة
اللهم أسعدها بتقواك
اللهم اجعلها في ضمانك وأمانك وإحسانك
اللهم ارزقها عيشا قارا ، ورزقا دارا ، وعملا بارا
اللهم ارزقها الجنة وما يقربها إليها من قول اوعمل ، وباعد بينها وبين النار وبين ما يقربها إليها من قول أو عمل
اللهم اجعلها من الذاكرين لك ، الشاكرين لك ، الطائعين لك ، المنيبين لك
اللهم واجعل أوسع رزقها عند كبرسنها
اللهم واغفر لها جميع ما مضى من ذنوبها ، واعصمها فيما بقي من عمرها، و ارزقها عملا زاكيا ترضى به عنها
اللهم تقبل توبتها ، وأجب دعوتها
اللهم إنا نعوذ بك أن تردها إلى أرذل العمر
اللهم واختم بالحسنات أعمالها
اللهم وأعنا على برها حتى ترضى عنا فترضى ، اللهم اعنا على الإحسان إليها في كبرها
اللهم ورضها علينا ، اللهم ولا تتوفاها إلا وهي راضية عنا تمام الرضى ، اللهم و اعنا على خدمتها كما ينبغي لها علينا، اللهم اجعلنا بارين طائعين لها
اللهم ارزقنا رضاها ونعوذ بك من عقوقها
اللهم ارزقنا رضاها ونعوذ بك من عقوقها
اللهم ارزقنا رضاها ونعوذ بك من عقوقها
اللهم اني اسألك من خير ما سألك به محمد صلى الله عليه و آله وسلم واستعيذ بك من شر ما استعاذ به محمد صلى الله عليه و آله وسلم
اللهم آمين
وصلى الله على نبينا محمد وعلى آله و صحبه ومن تبعهم بإحسان إلى يوم الدين
Extract Happiness (nice story)
** الأفضل ** مما مر في حياتهم
تقول إحدى الكاتبات:
رأيت اليوم مشهد فيديو قصير ولكنه ترك في نفسي أثراً كبيراً
" كانت هذه الفتاة الصغيرة التي لا يتجاوز عمرها الست سنوات بائعة المناديل الورقية
تسير حاملة بضاعتها على ذراعها الصغيرفمرت على سيدة تبكي توقفت أمامها لحظة تتأملها
فرفعت السيدة بصرها للفتاة والدموع تغرق وجهها
فما كان من هذه الطفلة
إلا أن أعطت للسيدة مناديل من بضاعتهاومعها ابتسامة من أعماق قلبها المفعم بالبراءة
حتى قبل أن تتمكن السيدة من إعطائها ثمن علبة المناديل
وبعد خطوات استدارت الصغيرة ملوحة للسيدة بيدها الصغيرة ومازالت ابتسامتها الرائعة تتجلى على محياها
** عادت السيدة الباكية إلى إطراقها ثم أخرجت هاتفها الجوال وأرسلت رسالة
((( آسفة ... حقك علي!!! )))
*** وصلت هذه الرسالة إلى زوجها الجالس في المطعم مهموم حزين !!!
فلما قرأها ابتسم
وما كان منه إلا أنه أعطى ( الجرسون ) 50 جنيهاً مع أن حساب فاتورته 5 جنيهات فقط !!!
***عندها فرح هذا العامل البسيط بهذا الرزق الذي لم يكن ينتظره
فخرج من المطعم
ذهب إلى سيدة فقيرة تفترش ناصية الشارع تبيع حلوى فاشترى منها بجنيه
وترك لها 20جنيه صدقة وانصرف عنها سعيداً مبتسماً !!!
*** تجمدت نظرات العجوز على الجنيهات
فقامت بوجه مشرق وقلب يرقص فرحاً
ولملمت فرشتها وبضاعتها المتواضعة
و ذهبت للجزار تشتري منه قطعاً من اللحم
ورجعت إلى بيتها لكي تطبخ طعاماً شهياً وتنتظر عودة حفيدتها وكل ما لها من الدنيا
جهزت الطعام وعلى وجهها نفس الابتسامة التي كانت السبب في أنها ستتناول ( لحم )
لحظات وانفتح الباب ودخل البيت الصغيرة بائعة المناديل
متهللة الوجه
وابتسامة رائعة
تنير وجهها الجميل الطفولي البريء
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Forever You & Me
With any words I say or actions I do
I don't know if you can really see
That you mean everything to me
You'r the one I've been looking for
& now I've got you I won't look anymore
I'd never cheat & would never lie
Because I don't want what we have to die
I hope whenever I see you my heart beats fast
Like it does now, I hope this feeling lasts
I can't imagine not wanting to see your face
Or that being without you will be my better place
If I'm upset or feeling alone
I run to your arms and i feel at home
Happiness and smiles is what you bring
I know this is real love not a school-girl fling
I can't wait to spend each day together
I can't wait till me and you are forever
I'll keep saying I love you so you'll see
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Nice Pray
Friday, January 29, 2010
Perfect Love Story
حبيت فيكي التواضع . . . . . . . . . . . . والعزة اللي ف كلامك
مبسوط منك لأنك . . . . . . . . . . . . إسلامك كل همك
أنا أصلي قابلت بابا . . . . . . . . . . . . واداني فكرة عنك
وسألته عن طباعك . . . . . . . . . . . . إن كانت يعني هادية
فحكالي عن سماعك . . . . . . . . . . . . لكلامه وانت راضية
وازاي بتسلي نفسك . . . . . . . . . . . . بذكرك وانت فاضية
وحلاوة صوت تلاوتك . . . . . . . . . . . . وازاي بتكوني شادية
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وسألته إن كنتي فاهمة . . . . . . . . . . . . معنى كلمة زوجين
قالي هتكونوا ورقة . . . . . . . . . . . . مطبوعة نسختين
غني كنت أو فقير . . . . . . . . . . . . ليك عند بنتي دين
سرك هيكون في بير . . . . . . . . . . . . معرفش مكانه فين
تفضل دايماً كبير . . . . . . . . . . . . في نظرها حبتين
لو جيت بفلوس كتير . . . . . . . . . . . . تطمن جت منين
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هتكون دايماً معاها . . . . . . . . . . . . سيرتك هتكون هواها
والشوق اللي ف خيالك . . . . . . . . . . . . تلقاه لحظة لقاها
لو جيت زعلان ف مرة . . . . . . . . . . . . إرمي همومك وراها
ومهما شوفت بره . . . . . . . . . . . . مش هتشوف مستواها
واطمن يابني خالص . . . . . . . . . . . . عقلها مافيهوش تفاهة
وزي ما هي بنتي . . .. . . . . . . . . . بنت حماتها وحماها
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وسألته عن ولادي . . . . . . . . . . . . منك هيكونوا إيه؟
قاللي هيكونوا عادي . . . . . . . . . . . . فسألته يعني إيه؟!
قاللي العادي إللي كان . . . . . . . . . . . . عند الناس من زمان
العادي بتاع سراقة . . . . . . . . . . . . وحذيفة بن اليمان
العادي بتاع أسامة . . . . . . . . . . . . وابن الحكيم لقمان
ده العادي بتاعنا إحنا . . . . . . . . . . . . بنربي عليه عشان
لو جينا ولا رحنا . . . . . . . . . . . . هنقابل الرحمن
عمرك ما تخاف عليهم . . . . . . . . . . . . ولادك في الأمان
أنا بنتي هتربيهم . . . . . . . . . . . . ع السنة والقرآن
هتشوف ابنك بيصحى . . . . . . . . . . . . مادام سمع الأذان
ينزل في الفجر يقرا . . . . . . . . . . . . بالسجدة والانسان
هتشوف في حجاب بناتك . . . . . . . . . . . . العفة والإحسان
هتشوف إزاي مراتك . . . . . . . . . . . . هتعينك إنت كمان
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وسألته عن حياتك . . . . . . . . . . . . من قبل الالتزام
قال أتذكر في ليلة . . . . . . . . . . . . مش فاكر أنهي عام
أذان الفجر أذن . . . . . . . . . . . . وقالتلي سيبني أنام
فدخلت الأوضه جوه . . . . . . . . . . . . أجيب منها الحزام
وعبال ما رجعت تاني . . . . . . . . . . . . كات رجعت ف الكلام
الله يجازي الشيطان . . . . . . . . . . . . خلاها تقول أنام
بس اطمن خلاص . . . . . . . . . . . . دلوقتي بقت تمام!
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قلتله طيب ياعمي . . . . . . . . . . . . يسعدني أقولك إني
بطلب بنتك ونفسي . . . . . . . . . . . . تناسبني وترضى عني
راح شادد فجأه لبسي . . . . . . . . . . . . وقلب وشه وسألني
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حافظ كم جزء يابني . . . . . . . . . . . . وقاري كم كتاب
احكيلي كده عن مؤتة . . . . . . . . . . . . أوغزوة الأحزاب
وسمع كم حديث . . . . . . . . . . . . في الأخذ بالأسباب
وكمان سمعلي آيه . . . . . . . . . . . . ذكرت فيها الدواب
ولو شايفها صعبة . . . . . . . . . . . . قللي بتاعة الذباب
واحكيلي حلم يوسف . . . . . . . . . . . . وبراءة الذئاب
واخواته لما جولوه . . . . . . . . . . . . دخلوا من أنهي باب
واديني فكرة برضه . . . . . . . . . . . . بتقبض كم ثواب
وناوي ازاي تحسن. . . . . . . . . . . . أنا شايفك لسه شاب
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وسأل نفسه وسألني . . . . . . . . . . . . هيعوز إيه يعني مني؟
لو عندي كل حاجه . . . . . . . . . . . . وديني مش شاغلني
أحسن لك تنسى بنتي . . . . . . . . . . . . ومهرك مش لازمني
قلتله صبرك ياعمي . . . . . . . . . . . . وبراحتك امتحني
يبقى اما أسأل تجاوب . . . . . . . . . . . . خليك دايماً فاهمني
سألتك وانت ساكت . . . . . . . . . . . . خليتني أظن ظني
وفضل يسأل واجاوب . . . . . . . . . . . . وعشان خاطرك عصرني
وظهرت النتيجة .. . . . . . . . . . . . وبفضل الله قبلني
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قاللي مقبول في نظري . . . . . . . . . . . . مبروك عليك ياسيدي
لكن في نظرها هي . . . . . . . . . . . . نجاحك مش بإيدي
وهي زمانها راجعة . . . . . . . . . . . . من تمرين السويدي
خليك قاعد شوية . . . . . . . . . . . . استنا لما تيجي
هعملك من إيديا . . . . . . . . . . . . كباية شاي صعيدي
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سابني وقعدت أفكر . . . . . . . . . . . . هل ممكن ترفضيني
طاب قولي حتى أفكر . . . . . . . . . . . . مش يمكن تفهميني
وفضل مخي يلاعبني . . . . . . . . . . . . يجيبني ويوديني
وخايف م المقابلة . . . . . . . . . . . . مرعوب بينك وبيني
ودق الباب في ثانية . . . . . . . . . . . . وشوفتك مرة تانية
مش قادر أنسى يومها . . . . . . . . . . . . وفاكر كل ثانية
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ونده والدك عليكي . . . . . . . . . . . . عشان أول لقاء
دخلتي وشوفت وشك . . . . . . . . . . . . عليه نور الحياء
نور والله فعلاً . . . . . . . . . . . . مش نور بودرة وزواء
كان أول مرة أخاف . . . . . . . . . . . . من فتنة النساء
أخلاقك مش عادية . . . . . . . . . . . . وجمالك كان شفاء
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قعدتي جنب والدك . . . . . . . . . . . . وسألتيني وجاوبتك
وفكل مرة أجاوب . . . . . . . . . . . . كنت باشوف ابتسامتك
ف أقول من جوه نفسي . . . . . . . . . . . . يارب أكون عجبتك
وبعد شوية قمتي . . . . . . . . . . . . ندهت عليكي مامتك
ورحتي دخلتي جوه . . . . . . . . . . . . وراح وراكي والدك
وانا قلت مش مروح . . . . . . . . . . . . غير لما أكون خطبتك
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وابوكي جاني تاني . . . . . . . . . . . . وقرب من وداني
لابس كرفته سوده . . . . . . . . . . . . وبدله لون فراني
المنظر يعني كله . . . . . . . . . . . . ميدلش ع التهاني
قلتله مالك ياعمي . . . . . . . . . . . . من فضلك قول عشاني
عرقي غرقلي كمي . . . . . . . . . . . . سايبني ليه أعاني
قاللي مستني إيه . . . . . . . . . . . . فين إيدك إديهاني
البنت مش موافقة . . . . . . . . . . . . تتجوز حد تاني
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كان أول مرة أعرف . . . . . . . . . . . . إزاي الناس بتفرح
سعادتي كات غريبة . . . . . . . . . . . . مش ممكن هقدر أشرح
من كتر حبي ليكي . . . . . . . . . . . . نويت أضحي وادبح
رحت اشتريت خروف . . . . . . . . . . . . وكان خروف بينطح
ده أخيراً هبقى جوزك . . . . . . . . . . . . وشجرة صبري تطرح
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خطوبتنا كات بسيطة . . . . . . . . . . . . مكانش فيها زيطة
وفرحنا كان في جامع . . . . . . . . . . . . يعني مش خلطبيطة
ومامتك جت في يومها . . . . . . . . . . . . ورقعت كام سويطة
هاتولي بنتي منه . . . . . . . . . . . . دي مش فاهمة العبيطة
إنه هيخطفها مني . . . . . . . . . . . . وهتوحشني الغتيتة
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صعبت عليا مامتك . . . . . . . . . . . . الموقف كان شديد
لكن فعلاً خطفتك . . . . . . . . . . . . ورحنا مكان بعيد
فاكرة ولا انتي ناسية . . . . . . . . . . . . أكيد فاكرة أكيد
من يوم ما بقيتي زوجتي . . . . . . . . . . وانا متهني وسعيد
معايا ف كل يوم . . .. . . . . . . . . . ويوم لؤاكي عيد
عمرك ما دقتي نوم . . . . . . . . . . . . وانا تعبان أو مريض
فلوسي كات بتكتر . . . . . . . . . . . . والخير عندك يزيد
وعامله ليه دفتر . . . . . . . . . . . . ومرتبه المواعيد
وبفضل الله قدرتي . . . . . . . . . . . . وجبتيلي الوليد
وبعديها بشوية .. . . . . . . . . . . . جبتيلنا عليه يزيد
وبعديه جت سمية . . . . . . . . . . . . وآخرهم كان حميد
بدعيلك كل يوم . . . . . . . . . . . . وأفضل أعيد وازيد
ربيتي عيالي دول . . . . . . . . . . . . ع القرآن المجيد
طول عمرك وانتي صافية . . . . . . . . . . . . قلبك لون الجليد
أخلاقهم مش عادية . . . . . . . . . . . . طلعنلك مش بعيد
وليد دلوقتي ضابط . . . . . . . . . . . . ومعاه رتبة عقيد
ودعوة قلبي صابت . . . . . . . . . . . . ويزيد أهو مات شهيد
وبنتك صيدلية . . . .. . . . . . . . . وحميد أصبح معيد
الله برحم أبوكي . . . . . . . . . . . . راجل من نوع فريد
كل اللي قاله فيكي . . . . . . . . . . . . أنا عشته بالتحديد
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عشت معاكي ف حكاية . . . . . . . . . . . . أحلى وأجمل رواية
حكايتي كات معاك . . . . . . . . . . . . وحكايتك كات معايا
اديتك كل عمري . . . . . . . . . . . . وهمك كان رضايا
وعمرك خدته منك . . . . . . . . . . . . وقربك كان دوايا
وخلاص العمر راح . . . . . . . . . . . . راحت أيام صبايا
ومسافر رحله صعبة . . . . . . . . . . . . وزادي مش كفايه
مش عاوز أشوف دموعك . . . . . . . . . . بالذات ف يوم عزايا
أنا عارف إنتي عارفة . . . . . . . . . . . . إن الموت مش نهاية
دي لسة الرحلة طالعة . . . . . . . . . . . . والموت خط البداية
إدعيلي يمكن أوصل . . . . . . . . . . . . وأشوف هناك حمايا
أنا عارف إنه فيها . . . . . . . . . . . . محجوزله هناك سرير
وسلامي في النهاية . . . . . . . . . . . . أنا خلصت الحكاية
لو يوم فكرتي فيه . . . . . . . . . . . . إقري شعري وغنايا
وأمانه ف كل مرة . . . . . . . . . . . . تدعي لي بالهداية
عسى ربي بدعائك . . . . . . . . . . . . يغفر ليا الخطايا
Just Walk Away
And no one else has loved me more
With you I've laughed and cried
I have lived and died
What I wouldn't do just to be with you
I know I must forget you to go on
I can't hold back my tears too long
Though life won't be the same
I've got to take the blame
And find the strengthI need to let you go
Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around now you may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for you
So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll never never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away
There'll never be a moment I'll regret
I've loved you since the day we met
For all the love you gave
And all the love we made
I know I've got to find the strength to say
Just walk away
Just say goodbye
Don't turn around now you may see me cry
I mustn't fall apart
Or show my broken heart
Or the love I feel for you
So walk away
And close the door
And let my life be as it was before
And I'll never never know
Just how I let you go
But there's nothing left to say
Just walk away
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
True Love
I felt something was different
I knew you felt it too
But I didn't know how to handle it
It was something my heart, never knew
So I couldn't accept it
As time went by
I went along with it, but at the same time
I felt like I could fly
It was such a mystery to me
But I didn't care
I knew eventually that I would see
Now for the first time ever
You had opened my heart
Something no one else could do, and I mean never
It was such a wonderful start
To a path I never wanted to part
Wow, I thought, I want this forever
We were two wholes combined
The last link in a chained circle
To a complete happiness together
It seemed as though our souls had rhymed
It was simply the best
I couldn't have imagined anything better
Although there were times when we would fight
It would always work out for the better
Because we were just so tight
Nothing could stop us, not distance or time
It was as though we were invincible
And I wanted your heart to always be mine
Our love was too true for each other
Even if we would split up
The love would always remain forever
I know they say what?s meant to be, will be
But in my heart, I know you are the only one for me
You are my soul mate, my friend, and my lover
I love you, and I always will.
U R the World to ME
I asked myself, how could this be?
I really love you with all my heart
I dread the moments we are apart
You’re there for me, through good and bad
You’re my everything; you’re all I have
I hope you noticed, the way I feel
I hope you noticed, that my feelings are real
When you near me I feel so secure
I hope that our love will forever endure
You revealed your true love to me
You revealed a love; I never thought I’d see
I think about you day after day
I really love you what more can I say
I’m glad you came into my life
I’m glad I feel this way inside
I hope we really are meant to be
I hope you know, you are the world to me.
Fading Away
when i will think then I will say,
our friendship is lost and gone,
and has fallen like dawn.
noone to look to,
when im feeling blue,
why you wonder?
well that's a question to pounder.
have you really left me?
is our friendship not meant to be?
are you not being true?
or doing things you'r not supposed to do?
i notice that we hardly talk,
and you always avoid me when you walk.
feelings are left unsaid,
and the hatred begins to spread.
is it true that our friendship is fading away?
please if yes, can we make up today?
cause you are my friend and i really care,
about the time we used to share.
but now this time is gone,
and has fallen like dawn.
i wish we could be close again...or at least try,
cause for the time we have lost i've had time to cry.
cause our friendship was honest and true,
and my biggest loss was being friends with you.
for the time we've spent apart,
have caused me a broken heart.
time apart from you has made me see,
how important our friendship is to me.
i don't know about you but i'm sure about me,
i miss the way our friendship used to be.
so is it true? are you my friend?
or the friendship that i loved...has come to an end?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Best 40 proverbs
If you don't have an objective in life, any cause could be one.
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يوجد دائماً من هو أشقى منك ، فابتسم
There is always one who suffers more than you do, so you should be optimistic.
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يظل الرجل طفلاً حتى تموت أمه ، فإذا ماتت شاخ فجأة
A man will continue acting like a child until his mother's death, then he will age in a sudden.
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عندما تحب عدوك يحس بتفاهته
When you love your enemy is when he feels of his emptiness.
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إذا طعنت من الخلف فاعلم أنك في المقدمة
If you have been betrayed from behind the scene, then you should be proud because you are the only one who is in front.
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الكلام اللين يغلب الحق البين
The soft words are more powerful than the naked truth.
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كلنا كالقمر .. له جانب مظلم
We are all like the bright moon, we still have our darker side.
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لا تتحدى إنساناً ليس لديه ما يخسره
Don't challenge someone who has nothing to loose.
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العين التي لا تبكي لا تبصر في الواقع شيئاً
The eye which doesn't know the meaning of tears, it doesn't know anything of value.
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المهزوم إذا ابتسم أفقد المنتصر لذة الفوز
If the loser keeps his smile the winner will loose the thrill of victory.
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لا خير في يمنى بغير يسار
No benefit of a right without a left.
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الجزع عند المصيبة، مصيبة أخرى
The panic from a catastrophe is anothercatasrtophe.
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الابتسامة كلمة معروفه من غير حروف
The smile is a famous word without letters.
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اعمل على أن يحبك الناس عندما تغادر منصبك، كما يحبونك عندما تتسلمه
Be cheerful when gettin-out as when you coming-in.
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لا تطعن في ذوق زوجتك، فقد اختارتك أولا
Don't be critic to yor wife's taste, she is the one who selected you at the first place.
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لن تستطيع أن تمنع طيور الهم أن تحلق فوق رأسك ولكنك تستطيع أن تمنعها من أن تعشش في راسك
You can't chase worries flying over your head but you can do preventing them from nesting in your head.
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تصادق مع الذئاب .... على أن يكون فأسك مستعداً
Dive with the shark but bewarre not to be swallowed.
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ذوو النفوس الدنيئة يجدون اللذة في التفتيش عن أخطاء العظماء
The demeanour will be thrilled in finding out a mistake of his great rival.
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إنك تخطو نحو الشيخوخة يوماً مقابل كل دقيقة من الغضب
Every minute of anger will get you one more year older.
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إن بعض القول فن ... فاجعل الإصغاء فناً
Elocution is an art so let listening be a similar art.
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الذي يولد وهو يزحف ، لا يستطيع أن يطير
The impossible can never decome possible.
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اللسان الطويل دلالة على اليد القصيرة
The gift of gab is a proof of jealousy.
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نحن نحب الماضي لأنه ذهب، ولو عاد لكرهناه
We have nostalgia for the past because it is gone. If it comes back we would hate it.
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من علت همته طال همه
The one whose ambition is great so his worries.
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من العظماء من يشعر المرء فى حضرته أنه صغير ولكن العظيم بحق هو من يشعر الجميع في حضرته بأنهم عظماء
People feel small in the presence of some of the great personality, , yet the greatest is the one who let all around him feel great as well.
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من يطارد عصفورين يفقدهما معاً
Chase two birds at the same time and you will loose both.
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المرأة هي نصف المجتمع ، وهي التي تلد و تربي النصف الآخر
The woman is half the society and the one who educates the other half.
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لكل كلمة أذن، ولعل أذنك ليست لكلماتي، فلا تتهمني بالغموض
For every word their is a listener and probably my words don't suit your ears. So please don't accuse me of being ambiguous.
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كلما ارتفع الإنسان تكاثفت حوله الغيوم والمحن
As more higher up one rises to as more clouds and problems will surround him.
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لا تجادل الأحمق ، فقد يخطئ الناس في التفريق بينكما
Don't argue with an ignorant for it will be hard for people to differentiate between you.
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الفشل في التخطيط يقود إلى التخطيط للفشل
The failure in planning will lead in planning to failure.
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قد يجد الجبان 36 حلاً لمشكلته ولكن لا يعجبه سوى حل واحد منها وهو .. الفرار
The coward will find 36 solutions to his problem but the one will like most is fleeing.
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شق طريقك بابتسامتك خير لك من أن تشقها بسيفك
Better set your path with a smile than with a sword.
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من أطاع الواشي ضيَع الصديق
If you listen to the telltale you will lose the friend.
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أن تكون فرداً في جماعة الأسود خير لك من أن تكون قائداً للنعام
Better being a cub in the family of Lions than being a king of the ostriches.
Just a Friend !!
My name I long for you to say.
Do you know just how I feel?
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
When you hear my name, do your cheeks turn pink?
Do you dream about me every night?
Wish to hug me and hold me tight?
Do you think we're meant to be?
Together forever, you and me?
These are the questions that run through my mind,
Your way into my heart, you did find.
It drives me crazy as to what I should do,
Should I risk a friendship and confess to you?
Or should I keep my feelings inside,
Keep them locked up, let them hide?
I just don't know what to do anymore,
My heart it aches, my heart it sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
How Difficult
وما اصعب ان تشعر بالضيق
ما اصعب ان تتكلم بلا صوت
ان تحيي كي تتنتظر الموت
ما اصعب ان تشعر بالسأم
فتري كل من حولك عدم
ويسودك احساس بالندم
علي إثم لا تعرفه ..وذنب لم تقترفه
ما اصعب ان تشعر بالحزن العميق
وكأنه كامن في داخلك ألم عريق
تستكمل وحدك الطريق
بلا هدف ..بلا شريك .. بلا رفيق
وتصير انت والحزن والندم فريق
وتجد وجهك بين الدموع غريق
ويتحول الالم الباقي الي ... بريق
ما اصعب ان تعيش داخل نفسك وحيد
بلا صديق .. بلا رفيق .. بلا حبيب
تشعر ان الفرح بعيد
تعاني من جرح لا يطيب
جرح عميـــــــــــق .. جرح عنيـــــــــد
جرح لا يداويه طبيب ...
ما اصعب ان تري النور ظلام
ما اصعب ان تري السعادة اوهام
وانت وحيـــد حيران
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Never...
If you don't really care
Never talk of feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you mean to break my heart
Never say forever
If you ever plan to part
Never look into my eyes
If you are telling me a lie
Never say hello
If you think you'll say goodbye
Never say that I'm THE one
If you dream of more than me
Never lock up my heart
If you don't have the key
Perfect in my Eyes
And for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect & so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.
I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.
I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
It's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
That love is real, and exists in me.
Standing By
Here to help you through your day.
Holding you up, When you are weak,
Helping you find what you seek.
Catching your tears, When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.
Absorbing your voice When you talk.
Standing by when you learn to walk.
Just being there, Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.
Love...
I saw this great love starting to begin.
I opened my eyes to a vision of you
I hope, I pray your feelings are true.
I think I have truly found,
An Angel who walks upon the ground.
You go beyond all limits for me,
Just to show your love endlessly.
I could search my whole life through
and never find another 'you'.
You are so special that,
I wanted you to know
I truly, completely love you so.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Holding Hands
.The girl said: "No Dad, u hold my hand"
."What's the difference?" asked the puzzled father
."There's a big difference" replied the girl, "If I hold ur hand & something happens to me, chances are that I may let ur hand go. But if u hold my hand, I know for sure that u'll never let my hand go".
*In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, age, caste or creed but in its bond.
So hold the hand of the person whom u love rather than expecting them to hold urs.
If You Go Away
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the night was long
And the moon stood still for the night birds' song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away
But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been or will be again
We'll sail the sun, we'll ride on the rain
We'll talk to the trees and worship the wind
Then if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to hold in my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away
If you go away, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning till
You return again, if you ever do
For what good is love without loving you
Can I tell you now as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away
But if you stay I'll make you a night
Like no night has been or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away
If you go away as I know you must
There'll be nothing left in the world to trust
Just an empty room full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your dog
If I thought it might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away
Thursday, January 7, 2010
A Silent Love
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often causes the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endures it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leaves, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learnt sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she opened the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
A Girl Who Felt Ignored
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 1O0 days...2O0 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you.....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve...you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life
R u a Flower or a Pearl?
نعم هو سؤال قد لا تفهمنه أخواتى
ربما لا تستطيعون فهمي وفهم المغزى منه.
لذلك إقرأن اخوتى هذه القصة حتى تفهمن المغزى
ذات يوم التقت وردة جميلة رائعة الجمال شذية الرائحة جذابةالألوان بلؤلؤة لا يبدو عليها شيئاًًً من هذه الصفات فهي تعيش في قاع البحار...
تعرفا على بعضهما فقالت الوردة: عائلتنا كبيرة فمنا الورد ومن الأزهار ومن الصنفين أنواع كثيرة لا أستطيع أن أحصيها يتميزون بأشكال كثيرة ولكل منها رائحة مميزة وفجأة علت الوردة مسحة حزن!!
فسألتها اللؤلؤة:
ليس فيما تقولين ما يدعوا إلى الحزن فلماذا أنت كذلك؟!
ولكن بني البشر يعاملونا بإستهتار فهم يزرعوننا لا حباً لنا ولكن ليتمتعوا بنا منظراً جميلاً ورائحة شذية ثم يلقوا بنا على قارعة الطريق أو في سلةالمهملات بعد أن يأخذوا منا أعز ما نملك النضارة والعطر...
تنهدت الوردة ثم قالت للؤلؤة :
حدثيني عن حياتك وكيف تعيشين؟؟
وما شعورك وأنت مدفونة في قاع البحـــار...
أجابت اللؤلؤة:
رغم أني ليس مثل حظك في الألوان الجميلة والروائح العبقة إلا أني غالية في نظر البشر فهم يفعلون المستحيل للحصول علي!
يشدون الرحال ويخوضون البحار ويغوصون في الأعماق ليبحثوا عني قد تندهشين عندما أخبرك أنني كلما ابتعدت عن أعين البشر ازدت جمالاً ولمعاناً ويرتفع تقديرهم لي...
أعيش في صدفة سميكة وأقبع في ظلمات البحار إلا أنني سعيدة بل سعيدة جداً لأنني بعيدة عن الأيدي العابثة وثمني غالي لدى البشر.
فاختاري لنفسك أن تكوني وردة أو أن تكوني لؤلؤة